Reasons you don't Look your EXes up on Facebook...

Well, it's Monday morning again. I'm so ready to get started with my real contact stuff in my internship but it seems like it's taking forever. I'm disappointed that I am not making money and I'm studying like crazy for these two very important exams I must take in about one month. Why then am I starting to get that loneliness you only get from not having the companionship of the opposite sex? I Have never gone this long without a date and I didn't even realize how long it had been until just recently. (Goin on FOUR months if you're interested). Keeping in mind that I am very picky and have a hard time meeting any men of quality just adds to the problem. Also, why is it that when I am trying to convince myself that I am happily single all my exes are getting girlfriends, wives, and/or children??? This is insane! It really shouldn't bother me but every once in a while it does. The one ex that has yet to find his perfect match or get a girl preggo has been talking to me more lately. This is good and bad. I can't go back to him. I will always love him but there is no going back to your high school ex boyfriend. I try to keep myself too busy to care about all this stuff but it doesn't work too well on the weekends. Funny how clear it becomes when even your parents are on a date on a Saturday night and you are watching reruns of Castle at home...oh well... I'm not pathetic just too hard to get matched with someone. I will say this, my standards have become much higher after the horrible experiences of the not so distant past....

New Beginnings

It's so funny how things go so wrong when you stress over them. I'm a stresser. I'm a dweller. I am a dweller and a stresser. It's just part of who I am and it seems like things only get worse the more I worry about them. Over the past two weeks I have come close to many breakdowns. I remembered what both my mother and my mentor advise me to do in these situations...pray. So I prayed. I gave up the worrying by asking for God's help. A miraculous thing happened...I stopped worrying. Not just that but I stopped worrying AND things worked themselves out. Through pray and the gift of sweet talk I managed to get into the impossible class, find something to do for the weekend, get eligible for comps, and find a way to have the info I need to pass comps. It has been one of those weeks and I can't wait to reward myself with a free Easton Corbin concert at the festival this weekend. A cutie with a hott voice is possibly the best way to end an amazing week. Here's hoping all of them turn out like this!